From My Bondage and My Freedom, by Frederick Douglass (1855). From Chapter 17, "The Last
Flogging." "Covey" is the brutal overseer, the "Negro breaker."
Whilst I was obeying his order to feed and get the horses ready for the field, and when in the act
of going up the stable loft for the purpose of throwing down some blades, Covey sneaked into the
stable, in his peculiar snake-like way, and seizing me suddenly by the leg, he brought me to the
stable floor, giving my newly mended body a fearful jar. I now forgot my roots, and remembered
my pledge to stand up in my own defense. The brute was endeavoring skillfully to get a slip-knot
on my legs, before I could draw up my feet. As soon as I found what he was up to, I gave a
sudden spring (my two day's rest had been of much service to me,) and by that means, no doubt,
he was able to bring me to the floor so heavily. He was defeated in his plan of tying me. While
down, he seemed to think he had me very securely in his power. He little thought he was -- as the
rowdies say -- "in" for a "rough and tumble" fight; but such was the fact. Whence came the daring
spirit necessary to grapple with a man who, eight-and-forty hours before, could, with his slightest
word have made me tremble like a leaf in a storm, I do not know; at any rate, I was resolved to
fight, and, what was better still, I was actually hard at it. The fighting madness had come upon
me, and I found my strong fingers firmly attached to the throat of my cowardly tormentor; as
heedless of consequences, at the moment, as though we stood as equals before the law. The very
color of the man was forgotten. I felt as supple as a cat, and was ready for the snakish creature at
every turn. Every blow of his was parried, though I dealt no blows in turn. I was strictly on the
defensive, preventing him from injuring me, rather than trying to injure him. I flung him on the
ground several times, when he meant to have hurled me there. I held him
so firmly by the throat, that his blood followed my nails. He held me, and I held him.
All was fair, thus far, and the contest was about equal. My resistance was entirely unexpected,
and Covey was taken all aback by it, for he trembled in every limb. "Are you going to resist, you
scoundrel?" said he. To which, I returned a polite "Yes sir;" steadily gazing my interrogator in the
eye, to meet the first approach or dawning of the blow, which I expected my answer would call
forth. But, the conflict did not long remain thus equal. Covey soon cried out lustily for help; not
that I was obtaining any marked advantage over him, or was injuring him, but because he was
gaining none over me, and was not able, single handed, to conquer me. He called for his cousin
Hughs, to come to his assistance, and now the scene was changed. I was compelled to give blows,
as well as to parry them; and, since I was, in any case, to suffer for resistance, I felt (as the musty
proverb goes) that "I might as well be hanged for an old sheep as a lamb." I was still defensive
toward Covey, but aggressive toward Hughs; and, at the first approach of the latter, I dealt a
blow, in my desperation, which fairly sickened my youthful assailant. He went off, bending over
with pain, and manifesting no disposition to come within my reach again. The poor fellow was in
the act of trying to catch and tie my right hand, and while flattering himself with success, I gave
him the kick which sent him staggering away in pain, at the same time that I held Covey with a
firm hand.
Taken completely by surprise, Covey seemed to have lost his usual strength and coolness. He was
frightened, and stood puffing and blowing, seemingly unable to command words or blows. When
he saw that poor Hughes was standing half bent with pain -- his courage quite gone the cowardly
tyrant asked if I "meant to persist in my resistance." I told him "I did mean to resist, come what
might;" that I had been by him treated like a brute, during the last six months; and that I should
stand it no longer. With that, he gave me a shake, and attempted to drag me toward a stick of
wood, that was lying just outside the stable door. He meant to knock me down with it; but, just as
he leaned over to get the stick, I seized him with both hands by the collar, and, with a vigorous
and sudden snatch, I brought my assailant harmlessly, his full length, on the not overclean ground
-- for we were now in the cow yard. He had selected the place for the fight, and it was but right
that he should have all the advantages of his own selection.
By this time, Bill, the hiredman, came home. He had been to Mr. Hemsley's, to spend the Sunday
with his nominal wife, and was coming home on Monday morning, to go to work. Covey and I
had been skirmishing from before daybreak, till now, that the sun was almost shooting his beams
over the eastern woods, and we were still at it. I could not see where the matter was to terminate.
He evidently was afraid to let me go, lest I should again make off to the woods; otherwise, he
would probably have obtained arms from the house, to frighten me. Holding me, Covey called
upon Bill for assistance. The scene here, had something comic about it. "Bill," who knew
precisely what Covey wished him to do, affected ignorance, and pretended he did not know what
to do. "What shall I do, Mr. Covey," said Bill. "Take hold of him -- take hold of him!" said
Covey. With a toss of his head, peculiar to Bill, he said, "indeed, Mr. Covey I want to go to
work." "This is your work," said Covey; "take hold of him." Bill replied, with spirit, "My master
hired me here, to work, and not to help you whip Frederick." It was now my turn to speak. "Bill,"
said I, "don't put your hands on me." To which he replied, "My GOD! Frederick, I ain't goin' to
tech ye," and Bill walked off, leaving Covey and myself to settle our matters as best we might.
But, my present advantage was threatened when I saw Caroline (the slave-woman of Covey)
coming to the cow yard to milk, for she was a powerful woman, and could have mastered me very
easily, exhausted as I now was. As soon as she came into the yard, Covey attempted to rally her
to his aid. Strangely -- and, I may add, fortunately -- Caroline was in no humor to take a hand in
any such sport. We were all in open rebellion, that morning. Caroline answered the command of
her master to "take hold of me," precisely as Bill had answered, but in her, it was at greater peril
so to answer; she was the slave of Covey, and he could do what he pleased with her. It was not so
with Bill, and Bill knew it. Samuel Harris, to whom Bill belonged, did not allow his slaves to be
beaten, unless they were guilty of some crime which the law would punish. But, poor Caroline,
like myself, was at the mercy of the merciless Covey; nor did she escape the dire effects of her
refusal. He gave her several sharp blows.
Covey at length (two hours had elapsed) gave up the contest. Letting me go, he said -- puffing
and blowing at a great rate -- "Now, you scoundrel, go to your work; I would not have whipped
you half so much as I have had you not resisted." The fact was, he had not whipped me at all. He
had not, in all the scuffle, drawn a single drop of blood from me. I had drawn blood from him;
and, even without this satisfaction, I should have been victorious, because my aim had not been to
injure him, but to prevent his injuring me.
During the whole six months that I lived with Covey, after this transaction, he never laid on me
the weight of his finger in anger. He would, occasionally, say he did not want to have to get hold
of me again -- a declaration which I had no difficulty in believing; and I had a secret feeling, which
answered, "You need not wish to get hold of me again, for you will be likely to come off worse in
a second fight than you did in the first."
Well, my dear reader, this battle with Mr. Covey -- undignified as it was, and as I fear my
narration of it is -- was the turning point in my "life as a slave." It rekindled in my breast the
smouldering embers of liberty; it brought up my Baltimore dreams, and revived a sense of my own
manhood. I was a changed being after that fight. I was nothing before; I WAS A MAN NOW. It
recalled to life my crushed self-respect and my self-confidence, and inspired me with a renewed
determination to be A FREEMAN. A man, without force, is without the essential dignity of
humanity. Human nature is so constituted, that it cannot honor a helpless man, although it can
pity him; and even this it cannot do long, if the signs of power do not arise.
He can only understand the effect of this combat on my spirit, who has himself incurred
something, hazarded something, in repelling the unjust and cruel aggressions of a tyrant. Covey
was a tyrant, and a cowardly one, withal. After resisting him, I felt as I had never felt before. It
was a resurrection from the dark and pestiferous tomb of slavery, to the heaven of comparative
freedom. I was no longer a servile coward, trembling under the frown of a brother worm of the
dust, but, my long-cowed spirit was roused to an attitude of manly independence. I had reached
the point, at which I was not afraid to die. This spirit made me a freeman in fact, while I remained
a slave in form. When a slave cannot be flogged he is more than half free. He has a domain as
broad as his own manly heart to defend, and he is really "a power on earth." While slaves prefer
their lives, with flogging, to instant death, they will always find Christians enough, like unto
Covey, to accommodate that preference. From this time, until that of my escape from slavery, I
was never fairly whipped. Several attempts were made to whip me, but they were always
unsuccessful. Bruises I did get, as I shall hereafter inform the reader; but the case I have been
describing, was the end of the brutification to which slavery had subjected me.
The reader will be glad to know why, after I had so grievously offended Mr. Covey, he did not
have me taken in hand by the authorities; indeed, why the law of Maryland, which assigns hanging
to the slave who resists his master, was not put in force against me; at any rate, why I was not
taken up, as is usual in such cases, and publicly whipped, for an example to other slaves, and as a
means of deterring me from committing the same offense again. I confess, that the easy manner in
which I got off, for a long time, a surprise to me, and I cannot, even now, fully explain the cause.
The only explanation I can venture to suggest, is the fact, that Covey was, probably, ashamed to have it
known and confessed that he had been mastered by a boy of sixteen. Mr. Covey enjoyed the unbounded
and very valuable reputation, of being a first rate overseer and Negro breaker. By means of this
reputation, he was able to procure his hands for very trifling compensation, and with very great ease. His
interest and his pride mutually suggested the wisdom of passing the matter by, in silence. The story that
he had undertaken to whip a lad, and had been resisted, was, of itself, sufficient to damage him; for his
bearing should, in the estimation of slaveholders, be of that imperial order that should make such an
occurrence impossible. I judge from these circumstances, that Covey deemed it best to give me the go-by. It is, perhaps, not altogether creditable to my natural temper, that, after this conflict with Mr. Covey,
I did, at times, purposely aim to provoke him to an attack, by refusing to keep with the other hands in the
field, but I could never bully him to another battle. I had made up my mind to do him serious damage, if
he ever again attempted to lay violent hands on me.
"Hereditary bondmen, know ye not
Who would be free, themselves must strike the blow?
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